Well, there's nothing like juxtaposing the
Ten Commandments and the temptation of Jesus in the desert, and while we're at
it, let's throw Psalm 37 in for good measure.
Sometimes the lectionary blows my mind.
Psalm
37:4, "Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the
desires of your heart" (NIV).
It's one of the most misunderstood verses
in Scripture. I've loved it for years...
decades... OK, my whole life... first
for all the wrong reasons, and then... I hope... for some of the right ones.
Here's the trick. When we legitimately take delight in the
Lord, our desires change. The Lord becomes our desire. God gives us Godself... which is, to be
honest, not what most people want this verse to mean.
There are days when this is not what I want this verse to mean. There are days when I am afraid I might sell
my soul to the devil, in the desert, for some bread and safety and a queendom
of my own. I have broken every...
single... commandment (before anyone calls the police and has a warrant issued
for my arrest, please see how Jesus defines things like murder and adultery in
Matthew chapter 5). Like anybody else, I
have desires. Sometimes those desires
fall far short of what (and/or who) they should be. Let me be the first to admit this.
The more transparent I get, the easier it
is to share. This is not to be confused
with easy - just easier. When I started
writing about confession some months ago, I had no idea I would become more
comfortable with it as time went on. I
can talk about (most of) my failings now, and it's helpful. But there are days when the struggle is still
all too real, and I sound a little bit like the Israelites, begging Moses to
speak, because they are literally scared to death to hear God's voice. What might God
require? Even simple rules are hard to
keep.
I feel as if there have been times in my
life when I have leaned into and lived
into Psalm 37:4 the way it was meant to be.
Undoubtedly, those are peaceful times, even when they don't look like
anything anyone would hope for. I know
this from experience. I know this in my
head. And yet, it's one of those days
when getting all of that knowledge to seep down into my heart is more difficult
than I want it to be.
It's Thursday Theology. What truth do we learn about God in these
passages of Scripture? Maybe we learn
that God is demanding. Whoa! Hold the phone! What?
It's OK if you'd like to push back against this one (or anything I say,
ever), but think about this for just a minute.
When Jesus is being tempted, he uses Scripture to make it clear that we
are to live by God's words alone, we are not to test God, and we are to worship
only God. God wants to be our desire,
over and above any desire that is natural to human beings. God wants to be everything.
Oh friends, there are moments when I can
say, "I got this," but they are often so fleeting. I would sure love to hear from any of you who
have "arrived". But since I'm
thinking the number of people who can make this claim honestly is zero, I'd
also love to hear from all of you who are still journeying.
L.
I love Psalm 37! One thing I have double-checked multiple times it's that it says "the desires of your heart" (more than one desire). Yes, God is to be the desire (singular) of our heart, but I like the thought that I can include other desires on my wish list when making the effort to delight myself in the Lord. And you're right: As I delight myself in the Lord my desires are changed.
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