Psalm
90:12, "Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom"
(NIV).
I always think of how this date on the
calendar sounds like a command to action... every... single... year...
Not knowing what might happen next can be
paralyzing.
As I type these words, the self imposed
deadline for the thing I wanted most, right now, has just passed. It's not that I am impatient. It's that I know I have reached a place in
life where I have to get moving. I can
wait for "Plan A" for the rest of my days, if I really want to, but the
problem with that is that I will miss "Plan B"... and C and D and X
and Y and Z and... well... maybe everything.
It's OK.
It has to be OK, because I don't want to waste any more days. Sometimes waiting is not a waste. In fact, I would say that often waiting is not a waste. But there are moments when you cross a line,
and you know that the time for waiting is over.
Today is like that.
"Plan B" (in this case) is really
only separated by what I wanted most in a matter of degree. The truth is, it's the best plan for my
family, and most of the time that's
what I really want most, anyway. I am,
admittedly, occasionally selfish. I'm
not saying it's right... just that the struggle is real. I'm going to let go of myself, tonight... at
least for the foreseeable future...
Psalm
90:1, "Lord, you have been our dwelling place" (NIV).
Psalm
90: 17, "May the favor
of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us - yes, establish
the work of our hands" (NIV).
It all fits together so well.
L.
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