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Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Laughter in the Midst of Pain



I hate drama.  I really, really hate it.  A lot.  Even though I have a knack for creating controversy, the honest truth is that I would legitimately be happier living in the land of unicorns who poop rainbows and fart butterflies and glitter... lots of glitter...  Please, do not tell my kids I used the word fart in public.  It is "the F word" at our house.  Seriously. 

For this reason, alone, it was super surprising to me when the words, "Please, tell me about your drama.  Tell me about the drama of someone else you know.  Heck, make something up," began to roll off my tongue, today.  I knew I was in trouble.  It's like I got sucked right in.  I just wanted to hear a narrative about someone whose drama was more ridiculous than my own.  I just...  I just... I just don't even know anymore...

I came home and read Scripture and was coming up short as far as actually having something reasonable to write (which you might think didn't get any better if you read that first paragraph carefully).

And then...

I Corinthians 15:30, "Why am I in peril every hour?" (NIV). 

I was all geared up to shout this one.  I mean, it relates so deeply, right?  It... it... Um, actually, it doesn't.  True story.  I am not in peril.  I am just really, really grouchy, and feeling a little bit sorry for myself... feeling a little bit forgotten.  And I think maybe I have also lost touch with what peril really is.  It's OK.  We all do this sometimes.

I laughed at myself. 

Because I tend to feel things deeply, I then spent some time thinking about all of the people in the world who really are in peril every hour.  And then I felt ashamed of myself.  A lot.  But that's not really any good either.  I need to move my feet.  I need to do things for other people.

I love it when people refer to me as the queen of... well... just about anything.  But not the drama queen.  I don't want that title.  Ever.  Starting years ago.  Resuming right now.

Psalm 115:12a, "The Lord remembers us and will bless us" (NIV). 

Good enough.
 
L.

2 comments:

  1. As a youth pastor I get pulled into the drama vortex often...sometimes several times a day.

    Drama is not fun and trying to find Scripture to combat each different situations that teenagers find themselves in gets taxing...quick.

    Good thoughts in this blog...keep your head up...you got this!!!

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    1. Thanks, Chris. Remember when drama in youth ministry meant that a group of kids had memorized a really great script and was going to perform it on Sunday morning? ;) Now, that kind of drama, I love...

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